Thursday, May 26, 2016

My Blood


My blood

I gave you an in. You saw me in the restaurant
and decided that was it.
I let my self be led. I sad no to what I needed
Two years I sat with a question
Waiting for a way out
Instead of just taking it
I dug a well bigger than my childhood
bigger than myself

Can you hear me?
Do you finally see me
Or are you too lost searching
for some greater meaning

You are your greatest teacher
and know one else is gonna save you
You already have all the love within you

I gave you my attention
I moved when you asked me to
You knew how to make my every action
worth your time

Can you hear me?
Do you finally see me
Or are you too lost searching
for some greater meaning

You are your greatest teacher
and know one else will save you
You already have all the love within you

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Yes, to everything that is.

okay,

Doing another blog. This time though, instead of writing a tumultuous, emotionally charged piece full of all my regrets and unwillingness to accept the current color of this dream, I'm going to get real.

I am a 25 year old white girl living in Denton, Tx. I am dating a guy named Alex whom I also share a house with. I play music in a band. I work at a credit union called DATCU. I have some friends and some acquaintances. I have approximately 3,000 dollars in debt which includes medical bills, credit cards, and and student loans. My mother, and 2 brothers also live near.

These are all concrete facts that I can say are true. I have avoided relaying any judgments about these facts.

Any suffering I have is due to my attachment to these facts and how I interpret them. Right here and now, I am not thinking about them. I am not worried about them, because here and now they are not a problem.

Alex and I are going to the Dallas Arts convention down town. His band will be play tonight. I will enjoy all the fruits of this evening without drifting into the future and worrying that my legs fall off.  

I have chosen to forget about my life and get swept up in the world and in the interconnectivity. I have thought about my expectations and my needs way too much. I know that writing is the way for me. Whether its poetry, stories, or songs. Creating is essential to my survival. I have known this for a long time. I guess I was to focused on trying to perfect my vessel. I think that this vessel with extend in flow into the river of life naturally. I must trust it. I must trust in life. Today I am saying yes. I am saying yes to everything that is in my life.